Here I am on the first day of the New Year 2006â€¦â€¦.doing what Iâ€™ve been doing for months, everything but getting into the studio. Recording old LPâ€™s so I can load them on the I-pod. That I-pod is supposed to be for background when Iâ€™m paintingâ€¦â€¦.making a home-made pizza. As if I need to eat pizza. Seems like thereâ€™s always something and none of it is of much importance. Maybe the printing out of the past yearâ€™s accounting and finding I did pretty well this year.Who ever thought they’d want to do accounting rather than paint?
I think thatâ€™s the point, do anything but my art. I just donâ€™t like anything that is happening with my work for months. Does this mean that Iâ€™m in a period of growth? Have my expectations gotten ahead of my abilities? I certainly hope it is a period of growth… but there is that little niggling feeling back there in the back of my mind that I have nothing to say. How can that beâ€¦.me with the big mouth?? Well, it could be said that having a lot to say but that is inconsequential is not really saying anything. Okay…let’s stop all this thinking negatively….I’m a positive person.
Finallyâ€¦â€¦.I went to the studio, looked in the palette keepers and all the paint but one pile was dried up. SOâ€¦..I threw it all away and put out all new, clean paintâ€¦..how glorious those new piles of paint always look. A new beginning, a new year, a new painting. Well, maybe a new painting, the one Iâ€™ve added lots of arbitrary lines to with charcoal just now has had two incarnations already since September and now itâ€™s time for old number three. Hopefully, as the saying goes, the third timeâ€™s the charm.
Okay, okayâ€¦.Iâ€™ll save this in drafts and go backâ€¦.no more putting it off. Back later.
Wow, back again AND……….. a good session in the studio. It’s about time. Hope I can feel the same way tomorrow when I look at it again with a new eye. It’s dark now so I can’t photograph it for the blog. If it looks like I hope, I’ll do it tomorrow if the sun shines.